'I got stories.' A life of troubles and love
“I got stories,” Tasha Lamm said when we first met her, in a little town in Appalachian Ohio. And she did.
Her problems might seem overwhelming: poverty, unemployment, a stint of homelessness, an abusive mother, a boyfriend who died of a heroin overdose. The many other things that she hinted at, but never revealed.
But Lamm is far more than the sum of her hardships. She’s a petite, talkative woman who has faced so much in her 30 years. It's as if she was almost unbreakable, with all that history feeding a palpable fighting spirit. She knew what was holding her back in life, and she knew what she needed to do to stay afloat and — hopefully, someday — escape from her tiny, troubled world.
The three of us on The Associated Press’ road trip across America met Lamm as we tried to make sense of a country upended by the coronavirus pandemic, unemployment, protests over racial justice and the brutal politics of the upcoming elections.
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This story is part of the Looking For America project, produced with the support of the Pulitzer Center on Crisis Reporting.
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Donovyn Bonice, 8, plays with his dog, Delilah, in their backyard in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Tasha Lamm, 30, right, poses for a photo with her girlfriend, Alicia Mullins 22, as they prepare dinner in their home in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. “I’ve had this problem with jobs - like authority,” says Lamm, who has been largely on her own since 14 and saw her father, brother and the father of her children succumb to heroin addiction. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Tasha Lamm, 30, poses for a portrait in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Alicia Mullins, 22, poses for a portrait in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
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Her home is small, cozy, and neat, carefully decorated with things that mean something to her and her girlfriend, Alicia Mullins. Her two young boys are rambunctious and happy. On the summer day we visited, they were playing with a hose in the backyard. She doesn’t let them wander from the house. After what she’s been through, she doesn’t trust the world out there.
At dinnertime, she and Alicia make the meal together, often with donated food but also with care.
It's too easy to stereotype people like Tasha. She’s jobless, lives in subsidized housing, and has a kitchen cabinet full of donated food.
But she’s also smart, strong and organized. She cares deeply for her kids and her girlfriend. She’s taken the little she has and made a life out of it, even if she’s desperate to find a way out of here. She dreams of going to New York City.
In the end, it wasn’t the struggles of the little family that stood out most in that little house. It was love.
Gabriel Bonice, 7, left, and his brother, Donovyn, 8, play with a water hose on a hot summer's day at the back of their home in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Tasha Lamm, 30, right, and her girlfriend, Alicia Mullins 22, prepare dinner in their apartment in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Alicia Mullins 22, looks at a cabinet full of donated food as she prepares dinner with her girlfriend, Tasha Lamm, 30, in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E
Alicia Mullins, 22, smokes a cigarette while boiling corn for dinner in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Donovyn Bonice, 8, does a back flip in his mother's room in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Tasha Lamm, 30, holds up a clay heart with the impression of a footprint and handprint of her daughter who died 6 days after she was born in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Photographs of Tasha Lamm's late husband, Bradley Bonice, decorates the wall of her sons' room in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Alicia Mullins, 22, left, and her girlfriend, Tasha Lamm, 30, smoke on their front porch on Monday, July 27, 2020, in Bidwell, Ohio. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Donovyn Bonice, 8, shows off a trick by leaping off the railing of his back porch in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Tasha Lamm 30, walks into her room while her sons, Donovyn, 8, center, and Gabriel 7, right, watch television in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. . (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Alicia Mullins, 22, lights a cigarette in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. . (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Donovyn Bonice 8, foreground, plays with his brother Gabriel Bonice, 7, center, in their backyard in Bidwell, Ohio, on Monday, July 27, 2020. (AP Photo/Wong Maye-E)
Text from AP News story, AP Photos: ‘I got stories.’ A life of troubles and love, by Wong Maye-E
Photos by Wong Maye-E